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Now yer talking !
Thanks Tier. I just feel like I am being consumed in darkness and can't go on. God knows I have fought and tried and tried again and again. The darkest of beasts. I called my Health Center and told them to cancel all my prescriptions - most are heart things. I am tired. I have a sis just in said I look awful - grey. My mother is being the bitch she's always been. Told all I was 'her rock' when all my life I've been a 'whipping boy'. I can't stand to look at her. I have pulled that woman back from death more times than I care to remember - even last year. She doesn't even remember what she said. But can demean and insult me ad nauseum. I am going to bed and hope I don't wake up. Was lovely meeting you. Aka Loli.As if you didn't know.
"Je voudrais parler à mon père" I really, really would. Céline Dion. 'I would like to speak to my father'.
He's gone on now. Maybe I will sleep and he'll come. When I was young I took my mother's side against his - much to my regret. He was right in every word he spoke.
Sorry for raving. I do believe it is 'better out than in'. And you are all good people - ordinary with heart aches of your own. Sorry.
Dear Marrius52, you are such a bright light... If you leave we will miss you.. I will miss our enlightening chats... We have ups and downs... Life is a roller coaster.. But even on the darkest days... The sun is always there... Big hugs .
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