CorpoGent93
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Hey, I'm looking to talk with a woman.
I've been single a very long time. The relationship did not end well. Trust broke down, and I was being punished, though I had not done anything. I realised I never loved her, wondering if she was always this person.
After that, I tried to destroy my emotions. I didn't think a relationship would ever be realistic for me even though I long for a connection.
A few years later, I met the most incredible woman. I had never felt about anyone like I did her. We spoke, laughed, etcetera, etcetera.
People would say, "oh, she likes you". So the fool I am, I actually let myself feel for the first time in years.
I was deluded. Something shifted and someone who knew both of us told me something along the lines of "I think I've given him the wrong impression".
Now I want to make clear, I do not harbour any resentment or ill will toward her. I think a part of me still loves her, I think.
It's strange, and I don't want it to seem dramatic. But since that day I have felt broken, a festering wound in my chest that has never healed.
It just feels like I've been slowly sinking year after year.
I'm trying to change, but do not know how.
Sorry to be a bore. If you are bored reading this, I'm not surprised. I am not interesting in the slightest.
Trying to be nicer to my self and I cannot even do it anonymously.
I'd like to change. Any advice or direction would be nice.
I'll try to take it on.
I've been single a very long time. The relationship did not end well. Trust broke down, and I was being punished, though I had not done anything. I realised I never loved her, wondering if she was always this person.
After that, I tried to destroy my emotions. I didn't think a relationship would ever be realistic for me even though I long for a connection.
A few years later, I met the most incredible woman. I had never felt about anyone like I did her. We spoke, laughed, etcetera, etcetera.
People would say, "oh, she likes you". So the fool I am, I actually let myself feel for the first time in years.
I was deluded. Something shifted and someone who knew both of us told me something along the lines of "I think I've given him the wrong impression".
Now I want to make clear, I do not harbour any resentment or ill will toward her. I think a part of me still loves her, I think.
It's strange, and I don't want it to seem dramatic. But since that day I have felt broken, a festering wound in my chest that has never healed.
It just feels like I've been slowly sinking year after year.
I'm trying to change, but do not know how.
Sorry to be a bore. If you are bored reading this, I'm not surprised. I am not interesting in the slightest.
Trying to be nicer to my self and I cannot even do it anonymously.
I'd like to change. Any advice or direction would be nice.
I'll try to take it on.