I agree that its frustrating as hell sometimes! I've met some gorgeous people, but distance and time is often a bitch. And Covid has made it even more so...
When you get lucky though and the stars align...worth it
AbsofuckinglutelyKeep HOPE alive, eh !?
I was making conversation as I agreed with your opening statement, which was my other point. My luck with women is so bad that if it was raining pretty women I’d get hit by a lesbian!
I'll be six feet above everyone so that will cover the social distancing aspect. A bit of banter and craic is healthy too though and the odd rant. Maybe it's all down to balance. Bitta carry on and banter and real world contact too. I think I am gonna have to get off my ass and into real world again for something real in this regard. All this toning to bubbly butt perfection and oiling the buns - plenty of offers but too far away. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 
Sounds as if all the same. I am not wasting another year of my life on one of these places. I have an old solar powered Orgasmatron in attic I think. Must look it out. Becoming addicted to words and images on a screen is no less soul destroying than any other addiction. We are designed for HHI not HCI all the time. That's Human to human as opposed to Human Computer - Interacting. It's not real - but we are. And most of us long enough in the tooth to know this. Great for communicating but not meeting deeper needs. I think I'll go out and straddle that telegraph pole for a while. Use industrial strenth lard
and yes distance can become a very frustrating issue... But if someone won't even meet half way.. Then is there really anything long term there? All I know for sure is everything begins with Hello... Keep an open mind and just see where the journey takes you just float like a leaf on the wind...
Another man was torturing some nurses so I went in behind the curtains dressed as a doc with a range of instruments to examine his bladder. I had an old glass syringe and a real long needle they'd use more in back surgery or something - and told him I had to inject some fluid up through his penis to numb him. I think he flickered between blue, grey and black. No more shennanigans from him. So bad. I could have given the poor soul a run of VF and then arrested his dear ol' heart. I do NOT ever mean to deliberately offend or hurt any other human being. Just not who I am. Though I have known much pain myself. Didn't make me hard or bitter but I hope more empathic. Some day that wonderful woman will fall from the sky and right into your arms John. I am incurable and unashamedly - hussy romantic. I put on my profile where I am - NW - but it's N Ireland. Way too far. But I do believe - even still - if two people really connect - regardless of distance - l'amour has NO boundaries. I have had every insult and abuse thrown at me over the years. Been attacked. Hospitalised. You name it. But I NEVER give up hope cause I KNOW that LOVE is REAL. It IS LIFE. Love Wins. And everything sensual is part of it. and thank for sharing, but I have to be honest... I've hidden all my pencils this morning no sketching for me today... And all the best people are Mad but on a serious note.. I do agree, people who care for others in what ever form that takes have had the hardest lives... Learned the hardest lessons, it's a shame but true! I feel in the beginning you try your best to be the polar opposite of what you have experienced... You look for solace in others.. And you really do make a difference but it rarely changes what's inside.. Forgiveness is a hollow promise... Unless your forgiving yourself! But at best understanding why and how people can be or do.. Can bring peace and help move yourself away from any responsibility. I totally agree, It does make you very emphatic, but you can't keep taking in others pain when your still feeling and trying to understand your own.. In the end we just have to understand that we matter to until next we meet ....
Good morning all, and Nemesis5... Thank you for your warm welcome
"You do what you think is right to survive, until you reach that moment when you simply can’t survive on what is not right anymore... "
Anyways I think your all pretty special it's funny I've been working all the way through this crazy time... Yesterday, finely have some time to myself, was looking for some honest real conversations... Happy to be here ! I see I have some fellow souls who enjoy the written word... And movies too. Have you seen "The Lake House" starring Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock?
Or "Black Narcissus" starring Deborah Kerr, Kathleen Byron, David Farrar?
She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes
Thus mellow'd to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.
One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impair'd the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o'er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.
And on that cheek, and o'er that brow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!
Lord Byron
"A hopeless romantic's reflection...
question: do we lose ourselves in the midst of romanticising or do we unravel our true selves.
response: do we lose who we are in the idealistic view of our romantic quests or do we unveil a trait of ourselves that has been there all along? hiding behind the perfect life you saw yourself having before your heart shattered in little tiny pieces when your utopian view took on another perspective. Recognising yourself in a dark state that was clouded by your 'cherry-kissed' outlook on love, you see who you really are. the good, the bad, and the ugly transformed into the hopeless romantic who has only experienced their first heartbreak to then examine every characteristic of themselves and determine if they were 'in the wrong'. your romantic expectations turning you into someone you're not is the controversial topic. but what if it was just the romanticising that grounded you and brought you back to reality? what if it was the romanticising that expressed your honest self? what if it were for all of the childhood fantasies and teenage dreams that helped you realise who you want to be with? what if it were for all of the traumatic experiences and unfulfilled relationships that helped you realise the person you truly are..."
I wish you a truly fantastic day
and I would have to agree... I find it interesting that.. The most inspiring enchanting emotional works have always been written by candle light. As shadows dance beyond the walls... The mind is free to wonder. Lol I'm happy you found them 
Good morning all, and Nemesis5... Thank you for your warm welcome
"You do what you think is right to survive, until you reach that moment when you simply can’t survive on what is not right anymore... "
Anyways I think your all pretty special it's funny I've been working all the way through this crazy time... Yesterday, finely have some time to myself, was looking for some honest real conversations... Happy to be here ! I see I have some fellow souls who enjoy the written word... And movies too. Have you seen "The Lake House" starring Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock?
Or "Black Narcissus" starring Deborah Kerr, Kathleen Byron, David Farrar?
She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes
Thus mellow'd to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.
One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impair'd the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o'er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.
And on that cheek, and o'er that brow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!
Lord Byron
"A hopeless romantic's reflection...
question: do we lose ourselves in the midst of romanticising or do we unravel our true selves.
response: do we lose who we are in the idealistic view of our romantic quests or do we unveil a trait of ourselves that has been there all along? hiding behind the perfect life you saw yourself having before your heart shattered in little tiny pieces when your utopian view took on another perspective. Recognising yourself in a dark state that was clouded by your 'cherry-kissed' outlook on love, you see who you really are. the good, the bad, and the ugly transformed into the hopeless romantic who has only experienced their first heartbreak to then examine every characteristic of themselves and determine if they were 'in the wrong'. your romantic expectations turning you into someone you're not is the controversial topic. but what if it was just the romanticising that grounded you and brought you back to reality? what if it was the romanticising that expressed your honest self? what if it were for all of the childhood fantasies and teenage dreams that helped you realise who you want to be with? what if it were for all of the traumatic experiences and unfulfilled relationships that helped you realise the person you truly are..."
I wish you a truly fantastic day
I had a change of name. I shall explain another time. They do say that angels walk amongst us unawares. I think you might be one of them. You have such depth of heart and mind and spirit - it is truly something beautiful to behold. A Narcissus, who does not fall for his own reflection, but the one peeking in over his shoulder I have seen that movie, yes - Deborah Kerr. You truly are a beautiful soul. I carry on, banter and talk a load of BS a lot of the time online - but I am your classic case of 'still waters that run deep' in reality. 
excellent... It's actually a pleasure to meet someone who has seen Black Narcissus, I feel it was a head of its time.. Very dark and deep.. But also very true... but trust comes in time.. Every flower will eventually open! as you are is perfect.. I like real people! As for age.. Your soul is far old than you can imagine.. I wouldn't concern yourself with age. You have an understanding of the space between words too.. A true passionate romantic heart! Thank you for your kindness and don't forget you are beautiful too! Have a fantastic day, week, life 