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[fidra2]

I was 17, looked younger on my first ship. What happened was probably inevitable. I shared a cabin with the senior cadet à year older than me. I was then i think from old pictures pretty rather than handsome with a hairless body. We were on a long passage from The Suez canal to Singapore. It was very hot, no air-conditioning so we were both almost naked in the cabin. One night he had turned in on the lower bunk, I got up put out the cabin lights and got ready to climb up to the top bunk. Suddenly an arm shot out grabbed me round the waist and hauled me into the bottom bunk in in a crouched sitting position, not a good position to struggle free though I tried. His free hand went into my pants and started playing with my dick. I tried to keep my mind on other things but it got stiff and feelings grew, I knew I was going to cum and I did a load into my pants. I thought that was it he would let me go but he kept his hand in my pants. I had given up by then just relaxed and let him do what he wanted. He got me stiff again and then I shot a second load into my pants which were now soaking. He asked me if I wanted it again, I said yes, I was completely demoralised. He told me to spell out what I wanted him to do and say please, I did then the bastardcsaid no, we have work in the morning and you won't be fit for anything. He told me to get cleaned up and turn in. The most humiliating thing was he put his torch on me as I dropped my pants and washed the spunk off. I felt ashamed I had not resisted more and even more ashamed that I had begged for a third go.